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[shamera]

I don't know why... well, actually I do know... but I'm in a really, REALLY bad mood right now. This whole day has amounted to shit. I'm hoping that it'll get better as the day goes on, especially after I get to the mall for the Otaku banquet.

But I'm tired, I'm grouchy, and I'm definately not in the mood to do anything productive right now. I'm actually proud of myself for not irritating my family today with my bad mood. But I'd also really appreciate it if they stopped trying to force feed me. It's getting on my nerves and just rattling my cage. Even with me refusing to eat everything they try and give me, I swear I've gained ten pounds this week. ARRRGGG!!! It's just impossible!! I can't eat when I'm hungry because I'm not allowed to GET HUNGRY. I hate it so much!!!! Why can't I eat when I want to? Every other minute, they call me out to tell me to eat something, and it's just getting on my LAST NERVE!

*breathes out*

I can't say no to all their attempts to feed me, either, because then I'd get yelled at. *grumbles* I had leftover pasta this morning, and half an hour later my grandmother calls me to eat the rice she made. Ten minutes after that she *insists* that I should eat some of the chicken. I just about started yelling at her then that NO, I was NOT hungry.

Then this afternoon we go to a restuarant to eat when I TOLD her that I was going to a banquet this evening, and that it was a buffet which was over $20 per person (So I want to be able to eat as much as I can then) and that I didn't want to be too full to eat when I got there.

Did she get it? NOOOOOO~ I had to EAT more at the restuarant because it was only POLITE to eat when people took me out.

So freakin' pissed. *steams* And now they're all gone and I have no clue how to get to the banquet because my aunt sure as hell can't drive me there because she has to look after my cousin.

GODDAMN IT ALL TO HELL.

And I want to get there at *three*. If I ask others, they're not going until *four*. This is one of those times where I really need someone here to scream at.



I finally got the dartboard I've wanted for so long. It really helps to relieve stress and strengthens my aim as well. I've had several ideas for stories the last few days, but I'm not sure what to write (since I already know that I can't work on so many stories at one time. ^^;;)

Hope that Todai isn't too expensive. ~_~